I could just be menstrual, or maybe I have just come to a realization.  I think I am a little over-stimulated by Ravelry.  For quite some time now I have found myself restless whenever I am on the site.  Looking for something interesting to read.  Or finding updates on old scandalous threads.  Or maybe just hanging out in LSG talking about everything that isn’t knitting.

I have been in a knitting slump for the last two weeks.  Paralyzed by a large amount of knitting that HAS to be done.  I have about three or four patterns on the list of things to get done, and I think the amount of time those things are going to take is just overwhelming me.  I have been on spring break this week and I haven’t touched a knitting project.

I get in these funks occasionally.  It has to do with my anti-authoritarian streak.  When enough piles up on my plate, either personally or professionally I start to get all resentful.  I work harder than everyone, I have to handle more than everyone, I am more stressed out than everyone. BLAH BLAH, WOE IS ME, BLAH.

Funny thing is, I am terrible at doing nothing.  If I do nothing, in response to my overwhelmed-ness (yes Jen, I made that UP!) I get depressed from doing nothing.  It is a classic catch-22.  Overwhelmed, or depressed?  Oh the happy choice!

I am not going to make any grand decisions, because I know all of these feelings are amplified by hormones right now.  It doesn’t help that I am FAT and unhappy physically.  Although I’ve been taking my vitamins, I am not feeling that much better and THAT is depressing me as well.  I am in the midst of a full-on FUNK.

So what to do?  I have to seam this afghan, and doing that may help with the knitting funk.  I am going to try and have a great productive day tomorrow.  That will help my over-all mood.  And last but not least, I will do what I have the hardest time doing: cut myself some slack.  We’ll see how that goes. :shrug:

I will add this little bit of flavor for you all.  Because I think it is just a funny picture and it captures my mood: